

hell yeah
and also yeah, i was in danger of going off the far end into fascism back in the day i think
I have a trauma-based personality disorder, which sometimes manifests itself in episodes of often uncontrollable bouts of verbal violence. I prefer to direct this to people on the internet (as opposed to actual people), as I don’t wish to be violent towards people I actually care about.


hell yeah
and also yeah, i was in danger of going off the far end into fascism back in the day i think


i’ve been trying to ward off a familiar misanthropy related to being a part of the eurotrash. i remember being a young buck, overcome with depression and nihilism, thinking that all humans deserve to die because surely nothing else can fix the evil that men do. so in the past 20 years i’ve grown to consider this way of thinking as infantile.
but when i witness these irrelevant fucks in europe seeing the bullshit happening the US but still somehow believing that it couldn’t happen here, because of some nebulous “purity” inherent in our institutions or something, and i find myself being like damn, maybe it’s just the west and all its people and culture and institutions and memory of that truly does deserve to die.
but then i shake the doom and look at pictures of kittens with my partner and go out to see the sun and touch some grass.


Could it be that the pedophilia and lust to harm children combined with the inability to bear responsibility for one’s actions inherent in western culture is the thing to pop the western AI-bubble and finally drag the whole concept of western countries and “cultures” screaming into the mud where they belong? Here’s hoping!
oh yeah it absolutely seems so. but hope shouldn’t be denied for those who haven’t been even born yet, trees under which we’ll never sit and all that i guess, but very often i completely lose faith in everyone in this shithole of a peninsula – or at the least this swamp my fellows inhabit. oh well